The first semester of my graduate school career is nearly at a close, and I am really looking forward to a short break before heading into an intensive summer course. My Marketing Management class is over and I'm working on my last week of the online Consumer Behavior course: all that remains is two more group projects to review (which I'll hammer out tomorrow, I'm sure) and then a dreaded final, which I hope to take before next Wednesday. I'm hoping for a study guide still, because I know there are areas of study from the semester that I just didn't fully grasp and need a refresher on, but we'll see. If I need to shut up the windows and doors and hibernate for a few days in order to do well on the test then that's what I'll do. I'm anxious to get A's in both classes.
This summer's course is a Principles of PR class, which I'm really excited about, and depending on how the class goes I'm hoping for some guidance into a future career. I'm toying with the idea of a specialization in Brand Management and Marketing Communications and hope the class will help solidify a good choice for me. The description of the specialty says "advertising, promotion, and public relations managers are creative, highly-motivated individuals who are flexible and yet can meet a deadline. You will need good verbal and written communication skills and the ability to work well with people. Similar talents are needed by those involved with brand management." I feel like it is something I could really excel in, and I'm hoping the summer course will help me decide what to do.
I'm also thinking about a Sports and Entertainment Management specialty, which I've been thinking about since I chose to pursue a marketing degree, partly because of mine and Matt's love of hockey and our love of theater. I knew that either way I'd be excited about the field, and the idea of using my BA for a career made me excited too, considering that I still feel like those 5 years were the biggest waste of time and money for me (minus meeting Matt, of course). It's been a sad struggle for me, looking back to 2002 when I began my undergraduate career and really wondering What has it all been worth? How has it helped me? I know I'm not alone, I know that there are so many in the same place as I am, but it is still really hard to grasp. It's hard to be optimistic, and it's hard to look at my upcoming birthday, in just three weeks I'll be 27, holy cow... it's definitely a feeling of wishing I'd have more accomplished by now.
I read an article today about married couples who are putting off having children due to financial concerns and struggles, and I relate. Ideally Matt and I wanted to start a family sometime in the next year. But of course Life doesn't work out the way you hope, and now we have to put that dream off for at least another two years. Two years! Even if I graduate in Spring 2013 as is the goal right now, I'll still have to find a job and gain some stability in a career before taking time off for maternity leave. I know I can't very well apply for a job when I'm 8 months pregnant, so I just have to wait, and it kills me. I can't help but look at life right now as glass-half-empty, as time slipping away fast while I try to accomplish a degree and a goal that will hopefully give us some stability and happiness. It's not even a guarantee, it's a hope, and that's scary.
Ugh, anyway.
I am ONE POINT TWO POUNDS away from my goal weight, as of yesterday... I'm sure it's more like 2.2 now, as I got my May Day/Easter basket from Angela and it is filled to the brim with chocolate... it's been a huge self-control challenge, that's for sure! My goal, once I hit 115, is to start working out with Angela. I've had some problems with my muscles and strength so I want to work on that a bit. I also have a hard time looking at myself still because I see myself with an extra 30 lbs on and don't see that my legs or tummy have slimmed down at all. I don't understand how I have lost almost 30 lbs and now wear size 4 jeans instead of 8's and not really feel or see any difference... it's hard. I think I just need to start working out and exercising and it'll all hopefully come together. The cravings have been disastrous lately... I've got to figure out a way to control them. All I want right now in this moment is Sour Cream and Onion chips, Cherry Coke, a big-ass cheeseburger, greasy pizza, beer, chocolate, and more beer. It's killing me! It doesn't help that I desperately need to go grocery shopping and don't think I'll be able to for another week at least. I'm waiting for my summer tuition money to come through and until that happens things are just a little tight...
But that's about all for now, I think. Matt should be home from work in an hour or so and then we'll need to find some dinner and settle down for the evening. And next time I write I'll be down to 115!
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